14 September 2026

Snowflake Monday

I recently completed an epic temple trip... nine temples in six days. (Two were open houses, one is still under construction, and two were closed for routine cleaning.) Lizard and I had planned this trip months before he died. I knew there was no way he would be able to do it, and I think he knew, too. But he wanted me to go. Even though he knew it would make him miserable. We had attended the Casper Temple open house last year, and we both wanted to go back after the temple was dedicated. (He also wanted to return to the Grand Junction Temple and the Farmington New Mexico Temple with me after they were dedicated. I observed his birthday by going to the Grand Junction Temple alone, and that was so, so hard but so, so special. He considered the Grand Junction Temple his temple.) We both had anxiously waited for the Cody Temple open house. We planned to go back to Cody again next year to visit the temple after it is dedicated.

For the first couple of months after Lizard's passing, I didn't think there was any way in the world I could do a big Wyoming/Idaho road trip. I didn't even know if I wanted to. Frankly, I didn't know how to exist without him.

A little more than a month ago, I mapped out the planned route and made hotel reservations. I still didn't know if I wanted to go, but I knew he would want me to go.

Out of nowhere, one of my friends told me she and a friend had planned a temple-bagging trip in California but never got to do it. She said she'd always wanted to do a temple-bagging trip such as the one I'd planned. I told her she was perfectly welcome to join me. I'd booked rooms with two queen beds each night because that's what I'd always done with Lizard even before he was diagnosed with Parkinson's. It gave him more room to walk around when restless legs kept him up most of the night.

The only way my friend could accompany me was if she was able to work in my car while we were on the road because she could not get time off. I had been contemplating changing my internet provider for something less expensive and reportedly much more reliable than what I've been using for many years, and I decided it is time to make the change.

The mobile system I changed to worked great in the car – except when we were under the shade of a bay to get gas. (Ha ha! The unit has to have a clear shot at the sky.) My friend kept me from cancelling my plans, listened every time I cried, strengthened me when I was weak, and put up with my chaotic and tightly packed schedule.

I took a bag of crochet, which included my avocado pit- and skin-dyed thread (which absolutely fascinated my friend) and my snowflake plans for this week. I was able to crochet in a hotel room only one night the entire week, and my goal was to design this snowflake. I did not finish this flake during the trip. But I finished the trip. And I'm a bit stronger now because of it.


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There were so many tender mercies during this trip I hope to be able to share one day, but for now, I'm sharing the snowflake that was inspired by the Cody Temple stained glass motif (paintbrush flower from the top looking down, one of Lizard's favorite wildflowers) and by Lizard's heartfelt desire to return to the Wyoming temples with me.

You may do whatever you'd like with snowflakes you make from this pattern, but you may not sell or republish the pattern. Thanks, and enjoy!

Finished Size: 4.5 inches from point to point
Materials: Size 10 crochet thread, size 7 crochet hook, empty pizza box, wax paper or plastic wrap, cellophane tape, water soluble school glue or desired stiffener, water, glitter, small container for glue/water mixture, paintbrush, stick pins that won't be used later for sewing, clear thread or fishing line

Heartfelt II Snowflake Instructions

Special Stitches Popcorn Stitch (pc): Work 5 dc in designated st, take loop off hook, insert hook through top loop of 1st dc and replace loop on hook, pull loop through top of 1st dc.

Make magic ring.

Round 1: [1 pc into ring, ch 6] 3 times, omitting last 3 ch of final repeat; 1 tr into starting pc to form 3rd ch 6 sp of Round. Pull magic ring tight.

Round 2: Over post of tr directly below, work (2 sc, 2 hdc, 1 dc), [ch 3, sl st in next pc, ch 3, in next ch 6 sp work (1 dc, 2 hdc, 2 sc, ch 6, 2 sc, 2 hdc, 1 dc)] 2 times; ch 3, in next ch 6 sp work (1 dc, 2 hdc, 2 sc), ch 1, 1 dtr in starting sc to form 3rd ch 6 loop of Round.

Round 3: Ch 2 (counts as 1 dc), 4 dc over post of dtr directly below, [ch 7, in next ch 6 loop work 5 dc] 2 times; ch 7, sl st in 2nd ch of starting ch 2.
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Round 4: Ch 1 (counts as 1 sc), [2 hdc in next dc, in next dc work (3 dc, ch 6, sl st in 6th ch from hook, 3 dc), 2 hdc in next dc, 1 sc in next dc, in next ch 7 sp work (sl st, 1 sc, 2 hdc, 3 dc, ch 6, sl st in 6th ch from hook, 3 dc, 2 hdc, 1 sc, sl st), 1 sc in next dc] 3 times, omitting last sc of final repeat; sl st in starting ch.

Round 5: 1 sc back over previous sl st of last round 4 ch 7 sp, [ch 6, working behind next petal, 1 sc into next Round 4 ch 7 sp, ch 10, sl st in sc] 5 times; ch 6, working behind next petal, sl st into starting sc, ch 5, 1 tr in same sc to form 6th ch 9 loop of Round.

Round 6: Ch 2 (counts as 1 dc), over post of tr directly below work, (2 dc, 2 hdc, 1 sc), [ch 3, sl st in next ch 6 (keeping ch 6 behind petal), ch 3, in next ch 9 loop work (1 sc, 2 hdc, 3 dc, ch 3, sl st in 3rd ch from hook, * 3 dc, 2 hdc, 1 sc] 6 times, ending * on final repeat; sl st in 2nd ch of starting ch 2; bind off. Weave in ends.

Finish: I've been stiffening my flakes with undiluted, full-strength water soluble school glue for quite a while now, and I've been squishing the glue onto and throughout each flake with my fingers (yucky mess!!!) instead of gingerly painting the flakes with glue. Yes, it's a mess. But it's faster. And stiffer.

Tape wax paper or plastic wrap to top of empty pizza box. Pin snowflake to box on top of wax paper or plastic wrap.

If using glue, mix a few drops of water with a teaspoon of glue in small washable container. Paint snowflake with glue mixture or desired stiffener. Sprinkle lightly with glitter. Wash paintbrush and container thoroughly. Allow snowflake to dry at least 24 hours. Remove pins. Gently peel snowflake from wax paper or plastic wrap. Attach 10-inch clear thread to one spoke, weaving in end. Wrap fishing line around tree branch (or tape to ceiling or any overhead surface) and watch snowflake twirl freely whenever you walk by! Snowflake also may be taped to window or tied to doorknob or cabinet handle.

10 September 2026

Not So Silver Lining


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I often see crochet tutorials boasting that no sewing is necessary. I sometimes procrastinate assembling my tiny amigurumi because sewing the arms and legs to the body is time-consuming. But I've never quite understood why anyone wouldn't like to sew a lining into a crocheted bag.

Last year I finally completed two crochet bags that had been hiding in my craft closet for more than a decade because the lining had not been sewed in. I had procrastinated, but not because I don't like lining my projects.

I recently completed another scrunchie set and decided to make a coordinating carry-all. I don't want anything to fall out of the bag, so I lined it. I machine-stitched a lining and even added a change pocket to the inside. I then hand-stitched it to the crocheted bag.

Hand-sewing is time-consuming, but so satisfying. Perhaps even calming...

08 September 2026

An Early Thanksgiving

The morning after the recent lunar eclipse, I had planned to get up early, shoot the sunrise, then take a bicycle ride in search of wildlife to photograph. The eclipse was past what I've been trying to keep as a steady bedtime. Meaning, I got to bed LATE. After seven years of mostly sleepless nights (and even before Parkinson's), attempting to regulate my sleep patterns this last few months has been a bit of a challenge. I decided not to take my sleep aid the night of the eclipse so I might still be able to get up on time for the sunrise.

I woke ten minutes before the alarm went off, and I read scriptures until my daily devotional chimed. I had a 529-day streak of doing it every single morning before Lizard went into the hospital. I tried to keep up with it that week but apparently floundered a little. My streak as of this writing now stands at 130 days, which goes back to the day after he died.

Every once in a while, the daily devotional, which is centered on the Old Testament this year, really gets me. So many of the devotionals are so applicable to what I'm going through at that very moment. I often feel as if God Himself has plucked that particular verse that very day to prove to me He is still istening and still loving.

The devotional always links to another applicable and related scripture, as well as another article or General Conference talk that delves deeper into the principle being taught. I used to read both every single day. I was extremely spotty the last six weeks of Lizard's life because the Parkinson's had become so severe and sleep for both of us had become so fleeting. In the very wee hours of the morning, I set the goal to read and truly study both again each and every day while I waited for hours for the coroner to arrive and pronounce Lizard's passing official.

The morning after the most recent lunar eclipse, the verse of the day was Psalm 69:16. "Turn unto me according to the multitude of thy tender mercies." The linked scripture was 2 Samuel 22:2-3. "And he said, The LORD is my rock, and my deliverer; The God of my rock; in him will I trust, he is my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my high tower, and my refuge, my saviour; thou savest me from violence."

The linked article broke me. I erupted into a fountain of tears to rival Episode 54 at Kilauea a couple of days earlier.

I've been writing a letter to Lizard every day since about ten days after he died. I don't know if he can hear me when I talk to him. I don't know if he stands over my shoulder as I write to him. I don't know if he will ever be able to read what I write. But my pretended continued communication helps me feel connected to him, especially when I am missing him more than normal. I'm sharing a few excerpts I wrote to him the day after the most recent lunar eclipse because I think it best expresses what I wanted to share with you today.

Today's devotional broke me. Again. I think I'm doing better and healing, then something comes out of nowhere and topples me again. The devotional featured a short video message from a woman whose husband confiscated all their money and left the country. I thought of my first husband, who hurt me so deeply, I almost didn't trust you when we first met. But then I thought of you. I am so blessed to have you as my eternal companion. You are so kind and so sensitive, and you would never knowingly do anything to hurt me. Ever. That was such a tender mercy for me to realize.

The devotional also linked to a 10-year-old article by a woman with MS. I know a lot about MS because of all our efforts to fight the disease for those who couldn't before you were diagnosed with something equally as bad. If not worse.

I wondered as she disclosed her diagnosis if she is even still alive now. Her symptoms were severe when she was first diagnosed. As we both may recall, being diagnosed with MS is not always easy or fast. Hers seemed to come on like gangbusters, just like your Parkinson's, and I continually thought of you as I read on.

She received a priesthood blessing assuring her God would not give her any trial that would not be for her benefit. That absolutely broke me. At first, all I could think about was your final week, and how in the world could that possibly have been for my good? I cried and cried. Then, my thoughts went to you. Even before I was able to pick up my phone to finish reading her story, I thought about how much you suffered. Initially, I questioned God. How could that have been for your good?

I pretty quickly turned it around to being thankful you are no longer suffering and are whole now. That you were able to do so much in your life before it was prematurely taken from you. Almost like a thief in the night.

I remembered how you were always so good-natured and filled with loving kindness (which I've been studying a lot this week in Psalms), even when things got really bad. There were moments when you were not you, and there were too many times when you didn't recognize me. But just like the kindness you continually tried to show the homeless people you thought had commandeered our house, you tried to be kind to me, and you were almost always considerate of my needs. Because that's who you are. Even in extreme duress.

It helped me love you more. Sometimes, I don't think that's even possible. My heart is so full of you, there's no way my love for you could grow any bigger. But it does. All the time. Just like it did this morning.

I still haven't finished reading the article yet, and I've got so many things I need to get done this morning before it gets too hot. But I couldn't go any further without letting you know how grateful I am for you, how much my love for you keeps growing, and that even though I still have moments of intense pain, I know it's because we have such intense love. I wouldn't trade that for anything.

07 September 2026

Snowflake Monday

I wanted to rework last week's snowframe to make it easier to glue a photo to the center. But, I had the most fun trying to change it up a bit so it can have its very own personality.

You may do whatever you'd like with snowflakes you make from this pattern, but you may not sell or republish the pattern. Thanks, and enjoy!

Finished Size: 6.5 inches from point to point
Materials: Size 10 crochet thread, size 7 crochet hook, empty pizza box, wax paper or plastic wrap, cellophane tape, water soluble school glue or desired stiffener, water, glitter, small container for glue/water mixture, paintbrush, stick pins that won't be used later for sewing, clear thread or fishing line

Template II Snowframe Instructions

Ch 36. Taking care not to twist work, sl st in starting ch.

Round 1: Ch 2 (counts as 1 dc), 1 dc in same ch as sl st, [1 dc in each of next 2 ch, ch 3, 1 sc in 3rd ch from hook (picot made), sk next ch, 1 dc in each of next 2 ch, in next ch work 3 dc] 6 times, omitting last 2 dc of final repeat; sl st in 2nd ch of starting ch 2.

Round 2: Ch 12 (counts as 1 dc and [ch 10), sk over next picot, in next middle dc of 3/dc inc work (1 dc, ch 3, 1 dc)] 6 times, omitting last dc and last 2 ch of final repeat, 1 dc in 2nd ch of starting ch 12 to form 6th ch 3 sp of Round.
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Round 3: Ch 2 (counts as 1 dc), [in next ch 10 sp work (2 dc, 2 hdc, 2 sc, ch 11, sl st in 2nd ch from hook, 1 sc in next ch, 1 hdc in next ch, 1 dc in each of next 2 ch, 1 hdc in next ch, 1 sc in next ch, sl st in next ch (1st leaf made), ch 9, working back down spike, 1 dc in 3rd ch from hook and in each of next 2 ch, ch 4, 1 dc in 3rd ch from hook and in next ch, 1 dc in top of next dc, 1 dc in bottom of same dc, sk next ch, sl st in each of next 3 ch (heart tip made), ch 9, sl st in 2nd ch from hook, 1 sc in next ch, 1 hdc in next ch, 1 dc in each of next 2 ch, 1 hdc in next ch, 1 sc in next ch, sl st in next ch (2nd leaf made), sl st in next ch, ch 1, 1 dc)] 6 times, omitting last dc of final repeat; sl st in 2nd ch of starting ch 2; bind off. Weave in ends.

Finish: I've been stiffening my flakes with undiluted, full-strength water soluble school glue for quite a while now, and I've been squishing the glue onto and throughout each flake with my fingers (yucky mess!!!) instead of gingerly painting the flakes with glue. Yes, it's a mess. But it's faster. And stiffer.

Tape wax paper or plastic wrap to top of empty pizza box. Pin snowflake to box on top of wax paper or plastic wrap.

If using glue, mix a few drops of water with a teaspoon of glue in small washable container. Paint snowflake with glue mixture or desired stiffener. Sprinkle lightly with glitter. Wash paintbrush and container thoroughly. Allow snowflake to dry at least 24 hours. Remove pins. Gently peel snowflake from wax paper or plastic wrap. Attach 10-inch clear thread to one spoke, weaving in end. Wrap fishing line around tree branch (or tape to ceiling or any overhead surface) and watch snowflake twirl freely whenever you walk by! Snowflake also may be taped to window or tied to doorknob or cabinet handle.

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