Showing posts with label journaling. Show all posts
Showing posts with label journaling. Show all posts

17 October 2023

Lessons from Gardening

First overnight freeze of the season is in the bag, and tomato plants and most flowers are all done for the year.

What a perfect time to write down what I've learned in 2023 so I can do better in 2024!

Everything on my porch shelves was planted from seed this year - except the volunteer grape hyacinth, spider wort, onions and cosmos I dug up from where they aren't supposed to grow.

Almost all the volunteers I dug up this year survived! In pots on the porch. !!!

Most of the pots on the second and third porch shelves never grew. I used those dashed dreams to plant more volunteers I dug up, and most are thriving. Some of the baby spiderwort plants even bloomed! In their first year!!!

Raccoons, chipmonks and squirrels limited my success with cucumbers, strawberries, blueberries and even red sunflowers in pots on the porch.

Hail stripped my unprotected hibiscus plants, and although both thankfully recovered, neither bloomed this year.

My raspberry bush did not survive again. Last year's got fried in the backyard by summer heat. This year's plant, all summer long on the shaded front porch, unexpectedly died overnight, cause unknown. Raspberry bushes throughout the neighborhood are thriving in the outdoors, many overgrowing wild and stripped of fruit each year by bears and other critters. I've been trying to raise raspberries in pots to prevent them from growing wild and attracting bears. My best guess is that raspberries must not like pots and/or porches.

My ghost pepper (purchased from a garden center and transplanted into my raised-bed garden) never flowered, second consective year on that breed.

Oregano, sage and mint help keep critters out of the ground raised-bed gardens.

Tomatoes must be picked and ripened in the window as soon as they begin to turn any color other than green when squirrels are hungry.

Expired sunflowers left in the ground for the sweet goldfinches and grossbeaks (and migrating songbirds) will cause squirrels to become full-time tenants.

Cosmos pretty enough to be photographed should be cut and placed in vases first thing in the morning because the petals apparently are a delicacy for grasshoppers.

Amaryllis don't produce as many flowers past their prime. (I knew that, but I couldn't help but hope.) Amaryllis propogated from seeds take too long to flower. Amaryllis offsets are fun to watch grow, but they take many years to produce their first flower. If they ever produce flowers. And the person who said amaryllis bulbs like to be tightly packed... You must be growing different varieties in different conditions at a different altitude.

Iris tubers from seed also take too long to produce flowers. But they do grow...

Russian sage volunteers from the neighbor's spectacular display cannot survive if dug up and transplanted the first year. Second-year test ongoing...

Lilac volunteers may or may not thrive in a new setting; but they appear to take years to blossom, too.

Potted light blue Mother's Day hydrangea will make new stalks and beautiful leaves every single year, even if ignored, but will not flower unless the wood survives the winter. Wrapping the wood in newspaper and/or mulching does not help the wood survive the winter. (At least at the foot of the Rockies in central Colorado...)

Trimming and pruning the Charlie Brown Rose of Sharon that came with the house turns it into the most lovely and hummingbird-attracting flower-covered bush!

Neighborhood hibiscus that somehow survive the deadly hail bring tears of jealousy and feelings of covetousness in late August and early September. But I still have neighbors asking me if I will build a garden for them. I may not have everything I want every year, but, boy, do I have beauty!

19 April 2022

Endings

I just finished reading the "goodbye" post from Fat Cyclist, which Elden actually wrote four months ago. I feel as if a part of my life has disappeared.

I've actually felt as if a HUGE part of my life disappeared since Lizard's Parkinson's diagnosis back in August of 2018. I occasionally catch myself in a puddle of self-pity because of what my life has become. We have pretty much become primarily home bodies; we don't get out, and it's not because of any pandemic. When I begin to feel that way, I remind myself what Lizard must feel about his life. That quickly mops up any tears of selfdom threatening to fall from my eyes.

But that's off-topic. The end of a beloved blog I love is a hard pill to swallow. Crazy Mom Quilts was a cherished hang-out, and I'm not sure there is another quilting blog that has come close to the following Amanda had. But Fat Cyclist... there was a time when Fat Cyclist was a way of life for me. For us. Although Lizard wasn't able to keep up with blogs the way I did because he didn't have computer access around the clock like I sometimes did, oh, how he loved checking up on Fatty when he could.

How sad that I'm just now seeing Fatty's goodbye. Fat Cyclist was one of my favorite blogs to read back when I could read blogs every single day. I was sad when Elden moved to Red Kite Prayer because I knew that meant he would be writing less often. Red Kite Prayer was the top cycling blog on the internet at the time, and I thought I might like it as much as I enjoyed Fat Cyclist. Slowly, my life became a little too busy for as much blog-reading (16 grandkids overnight will do that to you!!!), so I didn't read RKP as often as I'd read Fat Cyclist. Before I knew it (because I wasn't reading as often), Fat Cyclist was back, and I tried to keep up as best I could. But life still got in the way. Fatty slowed his production as much as I slowed my reading, and when his posts became less and less frequent, I wondered if he was okay. I wondered if his family was okay. I wondered why I completely lost touch.

And that's sort of the way all blogs have been trending, right? Well, busyness and technology. Now it seems YouTube and podcasts are the way to communicate if you aren't on Twitter or Snapchat (which I'm not). Even Elden declares in his final post, "blogs are dead." (Just try to tell that to the quilting community!!!) Some of the cycling blogs I read years ago didn't make it to the then-average lifespan of a successful blog, which, at the time, was eight years. Many didn't make it eight months!!!

I vaguely remember one cyclist who also was a quilter, and I so LOVED that blog. It was open to the public only a short while. Many of the blogs I used to read on a daily basis are gone now. Many of the blogs I loved to check up on until my life took its unexpected spin a few years ago have either stopped publishing or are now publishing extremely randomly (kind of what I am tempted to do every now and then when priorities keep me from computer free time). Even Red Kite Prayer has moved on in the form of Cycling Independent or TCI.

Are blogs truly dead?

I still LOVE to read blogs, but I don't prove it at all. I visit a very few of my very favorite blogs maybe once every two or three weeks, and even then, I often don't have time and/or means to comment. (Access via one of my computers is restricted, so even though I might be able to read a few while multi-tasking, I often can't see any included images or comments.) Are security restrictions contributing to the death of blogs? Are phishers of the blogging world contributing to the death of blogs?

I don't want blogs to end. I don't want to give up blogging. At least not yet. I hate that I can't be as active as I once was. Especially now that it feels as if Lizard and I are a bit cut off from the rest of the world. Blogging was such a big part of my life. I keep hoping it can be again one day. Especially since I will not move to Twitter and I have even less time to devote to YouTube than I do to blogs. The blog community was my community, and I treasure it. Even now, when it can't be the priority it once was.

I wanted to title this blog post "Painful Goodbyes", but the last time I pulled something like that, everyone thought I was jumping off the deep end! I'M NOT!!! I'm pretty darned happy, and I'm not giving up!!!

But the blogging world has changed. I feel as if I've lost a friend and motivator, even though Fatty is still around, just not in the blogging world. The quilt Lisa (The Hammer) gave to Elden made me feel kin with her, even though I know next to nothing about her, other than she's very fast on a bike. Yet, she probably didn't make the quilt. She probably paid to have it made.

Magic lives on, though, because I have my own Fat Cyclist jersey with pink. It isn't going to be cut up and added to a quilt for a good long time because, thankfully, I can still fit into it. But jerseys come and go, just like blogs, I suppose. And I have cut up a few for a future quilt for Lizard. (Shhh! Don't tell him!!!)

And that means I still have something in common with The Hammer. Lizard will one day have something in common with Fatty. I don't have to pay someone to make it. Lizard likely will treasure it as much, if not more, as Fatty treasures his quilt. And that future quilt will be something full of rich memories both Lizard and I will be able to wrap up in together.

27 August 2021

Friday Funny

I've been trying to downsize stuff in basement boxes, and my current box contained this gem, written by my daughter (me typing as she dictated) when she was in middle school. Names have been changed to protect the Hardly Innocent. I can't stop giggling!!!

Last night when Raz went to bed, she didn't see the gremlin who snuck in her room with her. After she went to sleep, he got into her glitter, her fingernail polish and her hairspray.

This morning when she got up, all her stuff was gone. But her walls were sparkly and her shoes all smelled like perfume! Raz thought her brother Taz had played with her stuff. She marched right down to his room and screamed at him.

"Taz! You give me back my fingernail polish before I make you wear it to school!" she yelled.

Taz threw a pillow at her and went back to sleep.

Raz asked her mom what happened to her glitter. Her mom had pink and green eyes, blue lips and purple sparkly hair!

"Mom! Did you take my glitter?" Raz asked. Her mom was really angry.

"No more glitter for you, young lady!" her mom said.

Raz began looking around the house for her glitter. She found glitter footprints and began following them. The footprints went to Jazz's house.

Raz knocked on Jazz's door. Jazz opened the door. She had red hair and orange eyes!

"Raz, did you do this to me while I was sleeping?" Jazz asked.

"No," Raz answered. "But I'm trying to find my stolen glitter."

Jazz decided to help Raz follow the glitter footprints. They went down the street to the bus stop. Someone had written "Backstreet Boys! Drool!" all over the bus stop in hot pink glitter. When the 40X came, Raz noticed the bus had red and green glitter all over it.

The bus driver let Raz and Jazz ride the bus for free to solve the mystery. They went downtown and saw sparkles everywhere. There were orange and blue sparkles on Mile High Stadium and red and blue sparkles on the Pepsi Center. Even Republic Plaza had sparkles on top of it!

Raz and Jazz followed the glitter footprints down Cherry Creek to the mall. Inside the mall, they searched the WB store. Sure enough, there was the gremlin, hiding in a Mickey Mouse costume and covered with glitter!

Raz picked him up by the neck and threatened to hang him on the Christmas tree upside down. He stuck his glittery tongue out at her. Then he told her he couldn't give anything back because he'd used it all up.

Raz and Jazz dragged him to the Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory and dunked him in chocolate! The gremlin loved it. But Raz set him on the 16th Street Mall, and pretty soon, two homeless kids ate the chocolate-covered gremlin.

Raz and Jazz went back to the mall to buy more glitter. Taz moved out and joined the military, where he hoped he would be assigned to bomb a glitter factory.

13 October 2015

Dollar a Day


I was in the kitchen brewing my hibiscus tea when one of my bosses entered.

"Another day, another dollar!" he cheerfully chimed.

Boy, did that send me on a trip down memory lane!

Every morning when we were kids, my mom used to lightheartedly announce, "Another day, another dollar in the hole!"

It sounds so depressing now!

I am the oldest of seven in a blended family. One of my siblings needed a lot of surgeries while still a baby. I'm always astounded when I look back and remember how well my mom and dad made it through some remarkably lean times.

Things were much cheaper back then, but wages were much, much lower than they are now.

Both my parents were raised by parents who lived through the Great Depression. Both of them knew poverty. Not what people think of as modern poverty - not being able to afford a season's pass at the local ski area or buy the most recent smart phone upgrade - but real poverty, the kind that sent some people jumping out of the windows of tall buildings. The kind of poverty that inspired a father to build his son a toy railroad track from used tin cans. The kind of poverty that resulted in using magazines as toilet paper and making quilts or even new clothes from old clothes or feed sacks.


Everyone then wore hand-me-downs, and they wore them until the fabric was so thin, the clothing often had built-in air conditioning for years. Cardboard could be made into shoe soles. Too-short jeans? That was a way of life. Suspenders weren't a fashion element. They really did hold up the pants passed down by an older brother because he couldn't fit into them anymore.

Foil was used over and over again until faded into oblivion. Feed sacks were used to make quilts and clothing because no one could afford fabric then. It was common to go a day or two, sometimes more, without a meal. Starvation was common.

Only about a quarter of the population had jobs, and only a handful worked full time. No one could afford medical care. No one could afford divorce or separate living arrangements once they did separate, so abandonment became the easy way out. Vagrant children really were homeless, with no suitable shelters provided anywhere, no charitable organizations to which they could turn.

A family making $1,200 a year was in good shape. Think about that. They lived on $100 a month and were in good shape, compared to the majority of the population!

Group housing then wasn't eight young adults living in one three-bedroom apartment with heating, air conditioning, running water and functional sewer. Group housing then consisted of entire families living in shanties much like we'd see in third-world countries now, some with no utilities. In some places, families lived in caves or sewer pipes.

The economy during the Great Depression was depressing, beyond anything we today have ever known. And yet, it brought some families together. It caused individuals to be more creative, more industrious, more productive.

The Great Depression is what created the services we have for the poor today, so the poor today will never have to experience the deprivation society as a whole endured then.

"Another day, another dollar in the hole!" It's probably something my mom grew up hearing, only not in a sprightly manner. The only child of a widowed mother (my grandfather died when my mom was 3), my mom learned at a young age the difference between want and need. By the time she married my dad, bringing three additional children to the three my dad already had, having 12 cents left over each month after paying bills must have seemed like a blessing from heaven. There were no extra 12 pennies every month when she grew up.


I remember the first time she had $30 leftover after paying bills. Off to the grocery store we went! She was so excited to buy food we hadn't been able to afford in ages. Bologna, puffed rice cereal and powdered milk could be supplemented by eggs, sugar and fresh veggies we didn't grow in our backyard!

As soon as I turned 12, I was babysitting every weekend so I could buy my own clothes (as opposed to hand-me-downs from an older cousin halfway across the country I never met)... and vinyl records! I loved music! My parents couldn't afford to buy music. If I wanted to hear anything besides the AM radio, I had to buy my own. Record albums then, the equivalent of CDs now, were about $2.99. (Elton John's Greatest Hits in 1974 was my first album ever.) Back then, I typically made 50 cents for a night of babysitting. One big tipper would pay me a whole dollar. It often took me at least a month before I could save up enough money for an album, and that was only if I didn't need clothes for school - clothes I picked myself, not used-looking hand-me-downs I could get for free.

Ragtime jeans, my favorites back then, were $7.99, plus tax. That was two full months of babysitting money, and at the time, worth every single penny to a style-conscious teen.

In junior high, I volunteered to pay my own locker fee at school so my mom could buy fancier spiral notebooks (designs on the covers instead of plain blue or red) for all my brothers and sisters. And then I discovered yarn.

My grandmother had taught me to crochet years earlier, but I never knew until I saw yarn in the store for the first time that yarn could be bought. That pretty much was the end of all vintage '60s bell bottoms and vinyl rock and roll in my little molecule of the world.


A 4-ounce skein of Sayelle yarn (the only brand our little TG&Y, which my mom said stood for Turtles, Girdles and Yo-Yos, had way back then) was 88 cents. One or two babysitting jobs. I crocheted faster than I could earn money, so I'd go without yarn for sometimes two or three weeks, which felt like an eternity to a teenager.

Yet I never went without food. I still to this day do not know how my parents kept seven little (and two big) tummies full before my mom took a full-time job. (My mom went to work the year I became old enough to babysit the rest of the brood, because who could afford a babysitter for seven kids back then???)

"Another day, another dollar in the hole!"

I had to explain the expression to my boss. He's younger than me. I think his parents might be younger than me.

I had to bite my tongue to keep from asking, "What? You mean you've never had Ramen noodles?"

30 June 2015

The Day I Lost My Whey

Palisade and the Grand Mesa from Mount Garfield

When I went through physical therapy back in 2012 after breaking my wrist and squishing a disc in my back, the therapist and my husband agreed I should strive for the strength and power to be able to complete rides in less than 12 hours.

Because, you know, more than 12 hours in the saddle isn't really good for anyone.

Enter 2015 Ride the Rockies. After a very snowy February and March. And then a very wet April, May and June. Following a year of not being able to pedal the full 60-mile commute to work due to construction.

Okay, so I can't quite pedal 100.01 miles in less than 14.5 hours yet. But I did pedal 100.01 miles!

I was too tired to write in my journal that night, and I had no signal on my iPhone. So my stored entry was short and not so sweet.

"That was hard."

I resisted the urge to type in all caps or with periods after each word. Actually, I was too tired to use the cap key on the phone; that would have doubled the key strokes. And I was too lazy to type two extra periods. That's my story, and I'm sticking with it.

Thanks to last year's "matcheypoo" debacle (unable to remember why I wrote the keyword when I finally took the time to sit down and write about it), I tried to keep better notes during Ride the Rockies. I wanted to remember every detail. I kept adding to Day 2 all week long as things popped into my head. Going back over my notes now brings back a swarm of sweet and grueling memories. It was quite the ride!

Grand Mesa, Day 2, five years ago

No Day 2 report would be complete without mentioning an unmentionable internationally known person who made worldwide headlines by pedaling the day's route alongside official RtR riders. The Lizard and I joked that perhaps that certain (in)famous person is jealous because his former lieutenant was affiliated with Ride the Rockies for several years.

Some riders were excited to learn they had ridden with a former pro. Some didn't care. I saw the jersey go by and wondered who would be wearing that specific jersey because many cyclists won't wear anything affiliated with that particular person anymore. But I was concentrating on my own climb and paid no heed. No regrets. I'd rather ride with The Lizard any day.

Grand Mesa in Winter

Grand Mesa in Autumn

Day 2, 2010 RtR

By the second day of Ride the Rockies, I was gaining a reputation as "The Rocking Sherpa" because of my stereo and my "loaded" backpack. I was not the only one with a portable stereo, but many riders told me I was the only one with good taste in music. A few other riders had backpacks, mostly for water, but most were riding medics. Ride the Rockies is a "supported" ride, so why on earth would you need a backpack? Plus, I guess road riders consider backpacks to be mountain bike equipment. It's not cool to tote any extra weight when you're on a road bike.

I'm slow, so why would I further burden myself by carrying a heavy pack?

I do try to keep it light. The Lizard stays on my case about this, too. He would prefer I didn't carry the pack at all, but he also understands my reasons and my determination.

The camera is the main reason I carry my pack. I need to have a safe place to stash it if the weather turns, which it did a few times during this tour. I carry the camera most of the time anyway, on or off the bike, so to me, that's not extra weight.

Unexpected changes in weather are another reason I carry a pack on most multi-day tours. We did not ride last year's Ride the Rockies, when Day 1 featured not only the rain, drizzle, hail, wind and chilly temperatures of this year's Day 2, but snow as well! Tour Director Chandler Smith does an awesome job of getting buses out to the riders when that happens, but there simply are not enough buses to quickly gather 2,000-plus riders strewn across 70 miles, often between two tiny towns, the instant Mother Nature decides to pull a fast one.

Many of last year's riders were caught off guard when the snow moved in, and most were not equipped for the extreme cold that seized control of the day. That's embarrassing if you live in Colorado and know you're going to be at 10,000 feet. These types of storms are a way of life here. "Be Prepared" doesn't apply just to Boy Scouts.

On Grand Mesa and Cottonwood Pass days this year, my pack included tights, arm warmers, my raincoat (which went along most days), ear warmers, full-fingered gloves and warm wool socks. On Grand Mesa day, everything but the warm wool socks came out of hiding. On Cottonwood Pass, I used my arm warmers only on the descent, so carrying all the other stuff wasn't necessary. But I'm more comfortable knowing I have it if I need it.

Ride the Rockies also seems to be getting away from the restaurant business and allowing outside vendors to handle the vast array of nutritional requirements of such a large tour.

When I participate in the MS-150, I can eat to my heart's content at each rest stop. Every rest stop has food for every preference: meat-eaters, diabetics, vegetarians, vegans, gluten-free, you name it. Rest stops are adopted by large teams, usually backed by corporate sponsorship, and there's a contest for the best rest stop. So lots of motivation to provide for every need and be fun, too. If the weather is warm, all I really need is my raincoat and my camera, so I can get by without a pack.

My dietary requirements and preferences don't quite match up with the fajita-laden menu of Ride the Rockies vendors. I also don't care for seven straight hard days of energy bars and gel. I can get by on nothing but energy bars and/or gel in a bind, but to fully enjoy a ride, I need real food. I am happy to have a safe way to carry perishable food in what can be uncomfortable heat. My raincoat makes a great insulation system for protein drinks and hard-boiled eggs.

If we participate in another Ride the Rockies, I plan to become an expert in mixing my own soy/whey drinks along the way. There were too many towns this year where Naked Juice and Odwalla were not available.

Grand Mesa

Speaking of, this year's Day 2 was the day I lost my whey. Twice.

I left for this long day of extended mileage and steep thin air climbing extra early to pick up hard-boiled eggs and a couple of protein drinks from the nearby grocery store. I'm accustomed to metro business hours. Grand Junction is not a metro. The grocery store didn't open until 5. (I had this same problem several days, although this day's experience primed me for what was to come.) So I waited, along with a few other riders and customers.

Once the doors were unlocked, I made a beeline to the protein drinks and then the eggs, having mapped out the shopping route the night before. I was first in line at the cash register. The checker couldn't get her register to operate, even after manual reboots. By this time, the line was four customers long. The store manager was outside somewhere, doing something unknown to the cashier but important, and he could not hear her paging him. After about another 15 to 20 minutes, the checker gave up, as did the customers.

I took off for the Grand Mesa with only the non-perishable food stash I'd packed. The bike path along the river is so picturesque, I'd like to go back again someday when I'm not trying to get over a mountain in a few hours. The sunrise on the water was particularly special.

The bike path ended, and I traveled along 29 Road until I saw an RtR sign pointing left into what looked like a big open field. I rode to the next intersecting street, which was clearly marked with a dead end sign, and there were no RtR signs to be found. So I went to the next intersection, and the next…

I ended up going about a mile looking for the turn before realizing, (a) I was not pedaling toward the Grand Mesa, and (b) any major intersections would have RtR signs. There were none, and I'd now been through two traffic lights.

I turned back, only to find a chain of cyclists following me. One was convinced I had been going the right direction; the others were willing to go back with me and look for the missed turn. By the time we found where the river path picked back up, in that very same big field I earlier passed, the volunteers were in place and directing riders which way to go. I'd now lost nearly a full hour. I wished I'd slept that extra hour.

One of the other riders exclaimed, "Well, I guess we'll get a century today without even trying.”

The view west from Skyway, Grand Mesa, Colorado.

Upon leaving Palisade, the tour entered I-70 and traveled via the coned shoulder. The grade is slight, which slowed me down a bit. Most other riders are faster than me and don't want to be held back, particularly on a busy highway. During every cycling event, all riders want off major highways as soon as possible. I was passed again and again and again.

I was trying to ride as close to the edge of the shoulder as I could and hold my line, too. That means going straight, no wobbling or sightseeing. A long pace line (a string of cyclists following each other very, very closely to minimize wind resistance) went by me, and one of the cyclists suddenly opted to go around the cone on the highway side instead of on the shoulder side. The cyclist behind him didn't have time to react and went over the cone. And her handlebars.

I stopped as quickly as I could without causing another accident, leaned my bike against the rail and ran back to the injured cyclist, who had been picked up from off the pavement and who was now leaning against the rails, probably in shock. Our eyes met, and I broke into tears as I took in the hamburger on her elbows. (That means she left some skin on the street.) I told her how sorry I was, and she assured me it was not my fault. The rider who had changed direction suddenly also assured me is was not my fault. But I couldn't help but think it would never have happened had I not been delayed at the grocery store and with the wrong turn.

Back on my bike, I cried for the next ten minutes because I felt like the injured cyclist's hardest day of the week was ruined by me. Soon more cyclists were passing me, and I had to re-focus all my energy and attention onto holding my line so no one else would be placed in danger by me. Another cyclist hit a cone right alongside me, but he didn't go down. He kept riding, although he did look back and curse the cone.

I felt an overwhelming joy when we reached the next rest stop and the end of riding on the interstate.

Skyway, Grand Mesa, Colorado

Ever since I ran out of water on Wolf Creek in 2013 (which, by the way, turned out to be my second century ride ever), I worry about running out of water on climbs. I tried to ration my sips to make sure I could make it to Powderhorn Ski Area. Powderhorn isn't an official rest stop, but every time RtR has gone up the Grand Mesa, the folks at Powderhorn have been out in force to make sure we have enough water (and sometimes food) to climb the next seven miles.

I was pedaling along, trying to keep the beat of whatever music was playing on my stereo, when I noticed a truck in a pullout on the right side of the road. A young man was sitting on the folded-down tailgate with two huge cubes of water. I did a double-take.

"Are you giving out water?" I asked, unable to believe the story my eyes were telling me.

"Come and get it!" he cheerfully replied. He soon had a long line of customers behind me. I thanked him and pedaled on, knowing I now would make it to the Powderhorn water stop, no matter what.

Powderhorn did not disappoint. Oh, my heavens! They also were serving not only hotdogs and brats, which I can't eat on a ride, but ICE water, too! The water lines were long, but there was enough water for riders to dump some on their heads and fill their bottles. I joined in the wethead party and once again filled both bottles.

Once my artificial cooling dried up, I began battling heat again. Plus, mosquitoes had detected my sweat trying to make up for what the ice water could no longer do. I just couldn't pedal fast enough to get away from them. They seemed to tease me by orbiting several times before diving in for the kill.

One went in my eye, and I went down trying to get it out. My bike hit the rider trying to pass me, and together, both bikes nearly took out the cyclist behind me.

I apologized over and over, feeling horrible for possibly messing up their bikes. Both riders thought I had heat exhaustion and insisted on checking my bike for damage. One insisted on riding alongside me for a while until he was sure I was okay.

Stupid mosquitoes!!!

A few miles later, the temperature was getting more manageable, and the mosquitoes apparently found another place to dine. We lose about 10 degrees every 1,000 feet we climb. Lots of riders were pulling over about every mile or half mile to rest for a minute, and I was no exception.

up, up, up

Dark clouds moved in, followed by lightning. Time to not stop anymore and get the heck off that mountain as quick as possible. Other riders were able to do that, but I got caught in one little downpour after another. And then, the rain turned to hail.

And I thought the mosquitoes were bad!

I finally reached the summit, totally drenched. Most of the vendors had already run out of food. I ate a little bit of fruit, downed a pickle, got challenged to a pickle juice shot and amazed the vendors when I gulped the fluid non-stop, took a pit stop, then quickly plowed down the mountain as fast as I safely could.

Rain chased me. Then, by golly, so did another hailstorm!

I pulled over beneath a couple of bushes for shelter, and two other women soon joined me. We waited out the storm cell, then slowly took off down the mountain again, trying to ride safely through the puddles on the highway.

At the base of the mountain, another rest stop awaited in the town of Cedaredge. If there had been a sag wagon there, I would have taken it. I was soaked. Not miserable. Just soaked.

I pedaled on and discovered what other riders are calling Chandler Bonus Miles. I think I prefer to call them Chandler Power-Ups. Chandler seems to favor nasty little steep climbs at the end of every big descent. The country roads I followed for the next few miles were like a roller coaster. After the last of the ups, I passed Chandler, who was checking on stragglers like me. I was among the last 100 riders on the road.

"Do you have enough water?" Chandler asked. "Are you doing okay? It's mostly downhill from here."

I started watching my odometer very closely, wondering how many extra miles I'd have to pedal to claim my century. I guess Chandler's Power-Ups worked. I was going for it, regardless of the 14.5 hours I'd been riding.

As I hit the town limits of Hotchkiss, I realized I wouldn't have to ride any extra miles at all. I might even go over.

The odometer read 100.01 when I parked in the bike corral a few minutes later. I had to stand in line again for water inside the school, but we had a charging station for our electronic devices this year! No more standing in line for plugs inside schools!

Climbing the Grand Mesa

15 March 2012

Journaling Along

My first and only century.

"You write in your journal every night?" Mrs. Micawber asked last week.

Yes. It's the OCD in me. Although there are many a night when I feel too tired to write a sentence or a paragraph, I just can't fall asleep if I've left that part of my day undone.

I have wanted to be a writer since before I knew how to write. When my dad was laid up for several weeks after breaking his back when I was five years old, I "wrote" book after book for him and sat on the edge of the bed reading my masterpieces to him as he tried to sleep. I have always loved to write, and I have always loved to make up stories. Over the years, that passion slowly morphed into record keeping and journalism.

I began keeping a journal as an English class assignment in eighth grade. I was regular at first because my grade depended upon it. When the assignment was complete, I wrote in my journal only when something meaningful made my wallflower teenage life worth recording. I did, however, begin writing poetry during those years, and sometimes I was quite prolific. Not necessarily publishable, but wordy, wordy, wordy.

During my senior year of high school, I had the most wonderful English/journalism/composition teacher in the world, and she encouraged all of us to write something every day, even if only a sentence. She challenged us to keep a pen and notepad at our bedside so we could write in the middle of the night if we had a dream that might one day flesh out into a novel. She tried to teach us to dream big. Still to this day, I often get up to write if I'm having a sleepless night.

I wrote in my journal more often during my first year of college because I was lonely, but also because composition was my favorite class. For the next ten years, I wrote heavily about the prospect of childlessness and the how being barren racked my soul. I also wrote every day because that was my job. I spent a good 14 years in the field of journalism doing exactly what I loved. Just not always topics I wanted to elaborate upon.

After I adopted my two then cherubic kidlets, writing in my journal became something of a luxury I often could not afford. Nevertheless, I made an effort when I could, and I tried to get my kids to dictate entries for their journals once a month and after special big events, such as our camping and mountain biking trips to Moab, my daughter winning a book fair with a ficticious story she had dictated to me, my son building a clipper ship for a school project, our weeklong pioneer-style excursion alone along the Mormon Trail, our trip to Alaska to visit my military brother, and biking Vancouver Island.

I shot a late-evening wedding on December 31, 1999, and the bride and groom put the kids and me up in the same posh hotel as the event for the night so we wouldn't have to drive home in all the craziness. That night, in that fancy hotel room, perhaps due to the novelty of turning a century, I was inspired set a goal to write in my journal every night.

Ever since that day, with the exception of a couple of groggy hospital days during my emergency back surgery in 2004, I have written in my journal every day. Some entries are as simple as, "I'm so tired, I don't want to write, but this amazing thing happened on the train today..." Some entries are brief. Some entries are 10 or 15 pages long. Sometimes the entry is a poem. Sometimes it's a dream. Sometimes it's a fantasy. Sometimes, it's a trip report.

My shortest entry so far is January 18, 2002. "[insert name of son here] ran away."

On March 14, 2003, while my son was still on the lam and my daughter was in rehab, after my fifth attempt came this life-changing entry:

Mike brought the mail by first thing this morning. We chatted for a few minutes about snowshoeing last week and the best lakes in Glacier Gorge. He asked what I plan to do this weekend. I told him I might go back up to Rocky Mountain National Park, but I probably ought to start riding my bike every weekend, just in case I get drawn for Ride the Rockies. I've been checking my mail every day, but nothing yet. There's still another week.

I got a phone call, and Mike left to continue delivering mail. When I got off the phone, I started to get back to work, but I noticed a Denver Post packet on my desk addressed to me.

I knew what it was. My heart soared, and then stopped dead cold. Without even opening it, I knew what it was, and I was so excited, I wanted to jump up and down and scream for the whole building to hear, but I also wanted to die of a heart attack. I knew there was no way I could make 404 miles. I don't have what it takes.

I slowly tore open the envelope and pulled out the verification packet. I'm in. I'm in my first Ride the Rockies.

I am in utter shock. I am terrified. I am so intimidated. And yet, I got what I wanted. I wanted to do this. This is my chance to prove I can do something hard. Something very physically demanding. I can prove I can take a beating and still survive. I can prove it to my kids. I can prove it to myself.


Some of my most fun entries are from when The Lizard and I began dating two years later (although our recent trip to The Wave has become a new favorite entry). This is why I keep a journal. Yes, I write because I must, and I write because it fulfills something deep inside me, but the bottom line is I love to be able to go back and read tiny details I may have forgotten if I hadn't taken the time to write them.

Here's a timely and appropriate entry from my second Ride the Rockies in 2005, which I got to do with The Lizard:

After parking my bike, I began looking for the stadium entrance to begin the worst part of today's journey but must have been lost in a daze. Out of nowhere came a tug on my arm. The Lizard hugged me and congratulated me for making it, then noticed the glazed-over look in my eyes. He took me by the arm and led me straightway to my tent at the front of the school, with no elevation gain and no stairs. He said something about an exquisite view of Mount Massive, the second tallest mountain in the state, but I just collapsed on the tent floor, not even bothering to search out my sleeping bag. The Lizard massaged my back for a minute and made me drink some water before leading me to the school showers, which he assured me were roomy, toasty hot and clean. Plus, no lines!

Unfortunately, all the other riders had already used up all the hot water. I had goosebumps until I accidentally shaved them off.


I will conclude with this gem I recorded just three months later:

The highlight of my day was looking through The Lizard's photo albums with him. He kept asking if I was bored. I could look at his photos all day. It was fun to hear his stories, stories I keep telling him he needs to write down while they are still fresh in his memory. His dad, who died before we met, was sent to an aunt's house after he got in trouble with the law, and he was the first person in the small town to ride a motorcycle. The principal told him he couldn't ride his motorcycle to school. So he rode his horse. What a riot! There are photos of The Lizard's dad during his military years and as a police officer. His dad saved every newspaper story that covered something The Lizard did. And his dad saved a creative writing assignment The Lizard wrote about him. It was neat to see The Lizard's developing skill as a writer. He had the same scientific logic and sentence construction as a child he uses today in a more honed way. And ooh, la, la!!! His senior photos!!! My goodness!!! I'd have stalked him for sure!!!

This is just half.  There are three more boxes.  And three external hard drives, although they contain mostly photos.

02 February 2010

The Story Behind The Story

Tour de SunflowersI've been moving my trip reports from my dead and gone Geocities web pages to this site for several months now. I was able to get almost everything backed up and saved before Geocities shut down last fall, but I still have a few more years' worth of reports yet to post here, although from this point on, I don't have a plethora of climbs each year.

I have debated for a couple of weeks now whether I should post the story of my 2004 surgery. To me, it was too long, too boring and too old.

However, a couple of things have nudged me in a different direction. First and foremost is the number of people I've met (or read about) who've had or are having back problems (or other surgery, such as cancer). My excruciatingly edited (thank heavens!!!) story below documents a few of the ups, downs, highs, lows and frustrations of pendulum-like mood swings that accompany a life-changing event such as major surgery. I'm hoping that by sharing my story, someone somewhere might be able to see there is light at the end of the tunnel, even if things don't heal exactly the hoped-for way.

Second, this episode in my life did indeed change my life. I was doubling the number of peaks I climbed every year until surgery. Then I had to start all over again, and I still haven't reached the level of endurance and skill I had before my surgery. It's been, at times, depressing, humiliating and demoralizing. Sometimes I forget I'm better off now than I was the month before my surgery.

And finally, the best part of my story is that I began dating The Lizard BEFORE my life so radically changed. He stuck with me even though the surgery changed who I am and what I can do. I couldn't have asked for a better companion and soul mate. I offer this story to those who fear their day may never come. I waited (and searched) many long years before finding the man of my dreams. I had so much baggage, he easily could have walked away. But he didn't. He stayed. He helped me heal. He's still helping me try to become as fit as my body will allow.

And now, we're getting ready to celebrate yet another Valentine's Day together. The day I used to dread and hate is now one of my favorites!
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